Well i'm back from my hiatis (sp).  While Ive been in hiding for the past couple of weeks.  I have decided on a couple of changes. One of them is and education/career choice. I have decided I am going to school to become a nurse. Not just any nurse but a pedietric nurse. First I'm going to take CNA classes and work as a CNA then go from there.  The only problem I'm having with this so far is getting information. Like on how to become a CNA and what programs and courses I need to take and all that stuff. I have requested information from some schools and hospitals on nursing and courses and programs they offer. And Monday when mom goes to the doctors Im going to ask our doctor so questions about nursing.  My mom is really behind me on this, but shes always behind me on whatever I do. When I told my dad he gave me his usual look, the one that says "yea right, I'll beleave it when I see it"  Thats the look and attitude he gives me and anything I want to do.  He still think be being a passion consultant aint gunna work, he keeps telling me I aint gunna come out even.  But hey you wont know for sure untill you try right? 

Another change I have made is my bedroom. I didnt redecorate or anything but I actually changed rooms. I went from having the master bedroom to haveing the room that should have bneen made a closet. I mean its so small.  I have my bed, tv stand my dresser and my endtable and its all bunched together I had to throw out my desk cuz it was too big for the room (and it was a small cheapo desk too) also cuz the wood wore out were the screws went and the screw stripped on me.  But the only floor left in the room is a small path from the door to betwen the bed and tv stand and thats only a couple feet wide. Thats how small my brothers room is and I actually traded with him. So he got my old room which was the master.  But the weird thing about the small room is that it has the biggest closet which is cool because I had the smallest closet and I have to devide my close between my closet my moms, my brothers, and the jacket closet in the living room. Yea I have alot of clothes and I still beleave I need more. lol

Ok back to the nursing stuff..(I know add right)   I bet some of you are prolly wondering how Im gunna pay for nursing school since it cost like out the rear end to do this. Well I have that figured out. Theres a bridal shop thats hiring full time and part time. Im aplling for the part time job there. And Im sure to get the job since they said they need people like now since there short staffed. Well I figured 7 bucks and hour for 40 hours a week that 1,120 a month minus top priority bills thats 841 left to spend/save. So i save half and leave the other half for neccesities. And pay for classes with the saved part and the witht the money coming in from passion parties I can save up more for insurance(car and medical), vegas, a car.  And once I become a CNA which is 6-12 weeks of classes/training the minium pay for that is 10.50. So i figured 10.50 an hour for 40 hours thats 1,680 a month. (i'm looking at 20 grand a year) And with that I can save up more money. And start paying off my debt. And yes Its on my list to do..granted its at the bottom but hey its on there...lol

Welp Im off of here. Going to see if I got that job at the bridal shop.

Well I've decided to post this instead of sithing over it. And since I cant knock the fuck out of someone, this is all I can do. For now.  Well whats going on is that I had been dating this guy(devon) I've known for 6 years. Hes my ex's bestfriend(stevn). (theres a whole other drama right there)  Me and this guy started dating in July and since hes a marine now we both inderstood the hardships of a long distance relationship at times when he would be out in the firld training. Well after a couple of months together we had decided that we were gunna get engaged when he left the military which is ina year and a half.  Well come to find out instead of being in the field so much like he said he was he's been going to GA to see the other girl that he is also dating.  NJot only are they dating but he took her to her fucking prom.  Does he not realize how much of a slap in the face that was. Not only were we planning on being engaged but we were moving intogether. And him taking her to her prom felt so much like a slap was b/c i didnt get to got to mine due to a principal who kicked me out of school.   I mean I dont understand it.  This girl is not only further away from where he is but shes younger then him (three years) and she bigger than me. I know im not skinny but damn shes twice my size and she has smaller boobs.  WTF.  I mean he basicly did what his friend did to me and he cussed him out for that he said it was wrong the way he treated me and he turned around and did the same thing. Then again my ex apologised for every wrong thing he did.  And the fucked up thing is that before me and Devon started going out steven had begged me to take him back but I turned him done for devon and a few other reasons.

Me and Steven will always be bestfriends but hes not the greatest when it comes to relationships. We dated three times in the last 6 years and the first two times he dumped me b/c he found someone new. The thrid time I shoul have dumped b/c of all the shit he did.  He cheated on me..pushed me down the steps b/c I slaped him when I found out he cheated. he was abusive the last time we dated and niether of us really knew why he was doing this. I think it was b/c in his other relationships he was the one getting abused. But before me and Devon got together he asked me to come back to him and I turned him down. And when I told him about me and Devon he got pissed and ran away to Ohio.  What the hell is it with me and guys. It never works out.  But hopefullt Steven will call me and then I'll have to hang my head and force myself to say that he was right for the first time and you know how thats gunna be. Once he finds out he was right I'll never hear the end of it. Atleast I'll have my bestfriend back...which means 2 am runs to McDonalds. lol

Heres my two tats: the weird thing is i fell asleep during the first one cuz it actually felt good. And the second one didnt hurt either but i couldnt fall sleep with everyone watching.

 this is my first tat. me and my mom designed it .

 my second tat. I got this one done at LRS fest at the jolly rogers tattoo booth. 

Ok everyone Im back from Lexington. I made over 600 in sales down there. Then yesterday my friends girlfriend came over and ordered 200 worth..so just this weekend I made over 800 in sales.  Also I have signed my first consultant...yay im a team leader now yay!  I got to use to everything in Lexington while I was down there...and since I was staying with my cousin she has talked me into moving down there..i even have a day job if I want it..which I do b/c thats an extra 900 a month for bills. And i found an apartment thats based on your income and I believe  they either pay all utilities or just everything but electric. Also they allow dogs..which is good b/c I have a beagle/black lab mix..and I not giving her away just for an apartment.  But since she takes after her beagle blood she comes up to a lil above my knees...and shes just as sweet as can be...as long as she knows you.  Since we have assholes for neighbors here she is trained to attack strangers and on command...but if I introduce you to her then she wont attack..you just have to prove to her that your not going to hurt me or her then your good.  So hopfully I will be down there by July at the lastest. basicly i need to save for a deposit and first months rent and get my drivers license and I'll be ready to go. YAY!!! So wish me luck on getting those apartments. I believe on the site they had idea of what the price might be...a 1 bedroom was 405...a 2 bedroom was 435...and a 3 bedroom was 466. So thats decent price..well atleast I think so. I have some party leads but the hostesses dont know when they would like to have the party..so Ive been searching for some I can do in the time being. hopfully I'll find one or better yet 2 or 3 lol.  Well I'm out for now.  Have a great and passionate day everyone.   Jenna

I really have to agree with my tag today. mainly because its spring.........yet its freaking snowing. All thru winter we bearly got any snow. Now its the second day of sring and we have a freakin snow storm. Three inches of snow so far! Its so bad the cable and broadband are out. So i'm having to use dial-up. I hate dial-up.  You know what they say. "Once you go broadband...you'll never go back"  lol.   Well friday is my party. YAY!! I cant wait. I'm so excited.I just hope the road will be better by then.  Also one of my friends is really giving it serious thought about becoming my first consultant. I cant wait. I'm just really hoping she gives me the ok before the end of the month so she can get the 40% discount on the cheaper kit.

On another topic.  These kittens are geting on my last nerves. Everytime I clean the lving room, (you know to get into that whole spring clean mood), they destroy it. I mean I woke up and all the ads and newspapers were everywhere...on the couch the floor and they were just rolling around in paper like it was kitty money or something.

I cant wait till the kentucky derby or the 4th of July. My bestfriend Shawn is coming down to hang out. He's gunna get a four day pass for both events since hes in the army. It seems all my friends are in the army or the Marines including my boyfriend.  heres a pic of shawn:

And one of Devan:

Aren't they both such cuties.  Well I dont think i'll get that day job at shoe carnival basicly because I can't work after 6pm on most weekends due to that fact thats when I'll be doing my parties. When they asked my if I could possibly work past 6on fridays, and I told them I possibly could some fridays. And when he asked me what other job I was doing and I told him Passion Parties he gave me a weird look and said that he'd pass my application on and get back to me. Which basicly tells me that I didnt get the job before I even got a real interview due to the fact I cant work weekends.  So I was really mad about that. But hopefully I will be able to find a day job that understands I have a responsablity to Passion Parties. Well folks I'm done updating for the day cant use all the dial-up minutes. Jenna

Ok everbody your probably wondering whats up. And you've probably figure out that I'm extremely pissed off!! But in order for ya'll to get the complete effect of why I'll have to start from the begining; so I hope ya'll dont mind but this maybe a lil long.

Well it all started 17 years ago. Ok fine I wont go back that far. OK well last year in February some friends of the family came up to visit. But me and their son had just became friends again since we had been a fight some months earlier.  Well when they came up he apologized and the day they left he wrote me a letter saying that he was in love with me and that he had been for as long as he could remember. And that he wanted to date.  I didnt want to take a chance of dating and us end up breaking up and not being friends anymore...we'll after a few days of him persauding me to go out with him I said yes...well in april i decided we should take a break b/c things were getting difficult considering he lives in tennesse and me in ky.

Well in may me and my mom went down there to visit for his graduation.  I mean as soon as i arrived he hugged and kissed me. And we hung out all day. He introduced me to all his friends as his bestfriend of 16 years. We went to the mall with his friends including a bestfriend of mine and his. Well when we got home he was telling me how we should be together and everything.  Well after a day down there we finailly decided to sleep together. Stupid as i can be..i actually did. Well the next morning some one calls his celly and he steps out of the room and when he comes back in i asked who it was. And you know what he said..."His Girlfriend"  I was like wtf....how in hell can you tell me one thing and do another.  And he was like "I thought i told you" "I fgiured you'd be ok with it"  How in the hell could i be ok with it. But whatever right. Well it was the weekend and we were having a grad party for him at our friends house. OK i should have added earlier that i've dated this other friend like a year earlier. But neways. Well this other friend noticed that i was in a mad mood and he asked whats up. And since this other friend is one of those friends you cant help but vent to even when you knwo you shouldnt open your mouth but I did and it felt good to tell him. So we were talking all night. ok not fastforward a couple weeks. Im home now and me and my bestfriend are fighting b/c of the way he treated me. I mena I felt like just a booty call. Like i was just convenate since we were sharing a room. Well I finailly cuss him out and tell him off and everything I mean I just blew up on him. And he comes back and says I only IMed you b/c my g/f dumped me and i thought my friend would support me thru this. I went off again telling him to fuck off for trying to guilt trip me and that he has no idea wut friendship means and a whole lota other shit.

Ok now fastforeward to late augest. Him and our bestfriends wife hope come down and stay at my house b/c they were visiting our friend/her husband at his basic training graduation. Well she ended up being sick and went to bed in my room which was ok with me cuz i have a queen size bed so there would b enough room for me and her but nooooooo. I had to share my bed with not only her but my friend also. And they changed in front of each other they slept with there arms around each other. Now the last time i check a married women doesnt share a bed with he husbands bestfriend. let alone change in font of him or let him hug and kiss all over her. Well i guess you can tell what was going on there. Ok so her and her husband get a divorce a month later. And her and my friend hook up. And dont mistake this ranting as jealousy b/c after me and him broke up i started dating a nice guy that ive known for 7 years who is now a marine.

And now today she post that her and my ex friend have broken up and she posted all the things he did to her. like wen they were dating and while they were on a break he slept with a whole lotta different girls (which is wut he did to me). So me being me and with the influence of my mom. i commented on her blog basicly saying "told ya so" well she replyed back. ok hold on imma past ion here wut she said and wut i said.

Heres wut i said first: Hmmmm this sounds too damn familiar! If its who I think It is you can't hate me when I say..I told you he would fucking do this didnt I? I told you he was a manipulative contradicting lil bastard.  But hey what do I know..except that i do know him...if its him..if not feel free to correct me.

heres wut she said: I really can't take anything you say about him seriously...why?...you tried getting with Shawn when I was dating him and I had just moved in with him cause I was kicked out...AND...when I went up to Shawn's Basic Graduation you tried getting in "the Dicks" pants the whole time...but he blew you off for me...HMMMM....makes me think...

And heres my reply: OK one. I never tried getting with shawn when you were with him. when you moved in with him i was "with" daniel. And two i didnt need to try to get into daniels pants when yall were here at my house. b/c mainly been there done that. And also i was and still am dating someone and you knew that then b/c your the one who told daniel. And also i still cant see why you couldnt believe daniel would do something like this b/c your the one who told my mom about him sleeping with other girls while me and him were together or did your kidney infection meds make you forget that. But whatever you want to believe. Im done with it all

So im really pissed about this and i cant wait for her to reply back. Well im out, Jenna

Ello. How is everyone this morning?  I seen this icon and thought it fit me nicely. lol.  All my friends tell me i should have been born a blonde. lol  Well I thought i would just be doing this new career but after doing some number crunching i realized i need a day job for during the week to pay for insurance till i can really get my new career going. Some of my friends that ave seen my other blog on myspace have asked me to send them a catolog and some info. So hopefully I'll be booking some parties with them. So im thinking about either going back to being a dietary ade for a while at a new nursing home or becoming a cna and working with kids.

Some other news is that i have started a diet journal so i have to keep to this diet mainly because none of my clothes fit. I've went from a size 5 to a size 13 within a year and it sucks.  Accordingt o the height and weight chart..for my height..which is 4'11" i should weigh 110 to be healthy.  But as of now i weigh 154 so ive lost 7 lbs. which is a good start. so if you want to go check it out jennasdiet.

Welp i guess thats all for now. Ive got to start on my cleaning for the day.

Ok its official. I am now an independent consultant for passion parties.  Even though I do not have my kit yet I have one sell and a couple potential sells and some leads for parties.  I am adding a second phone number to my home number because I afraid that with my brother always on the phone more than a teenage girl potential leads wont be able to get through.  I have custom designed me a business card that I am either going to purchase from a site that cindy reccomended or I can ask from brothers Ju Jit Su instructer to make some for me for a small fee.  The picture of the women w/ the rose at the top of my page is the picture i'm going to use as my logo. 

Well I am stress free now that i have left that hell hole trap called a minimun wage job.  Well as stress free as I'm gunna be. I've always been some what of a worry wort even when it comes to my parents financial problems i always tended to stress out about that stuff even as a child.  And dont think I havent thought "I dont have a job what am I gunna do"?  "How am I gunna pay my bills"? "Get my car insurance"? "Or even a new car"?    But i know I'm gunna get through this.  My moms gunna help me till Im back on my feet again.  But hopefully with my new career path it wont take me long. Well i belieave this is all i have to update on right now. I'll try to update more later.